It's that fine line
between pleasure and pain:
what I'm giving up,holding back on.
What I'm losing,what I gain.
It's that fine line
between now or never:
what I'm missing out on,my regrets.
What I build on rock,what ties I sever.
It's that fine line in red:
Intricately laced between want and need.
Oh God,please erase the grey!
Oh God,please take the lead.
(17 October 2012)
There comes a time in your life when you reach a certain space in your heart and in your mind,that you realise you are not as strong and in control as you thought you were.This is a good thing.
"There's beauty in the breakdown" - Frou Frou,Let Go (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3MRhQ1LXxfw)
There comes a time in your life when you realise the load is too heavy for you to carry,the burden is too heavy for your weak and weary flesh,and you surrender.This is a good thing.
"I'm not giving up,I'm just giving in" - Florence and the Machine,Never Let Me Go (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zMBTvuUlm98)
I came to that space today.
I don't want to be in control anymore - quite frankly,I suck at it.
There are some areas of my life that I've been secretly holding onto...one in particular...and it's time to let go.
I'm letting go.
"Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him" - James 1v12
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;" - Proverbs 3v5
"I delight to do your will,O my God; Your law is within my heart." - Psalm 40v8
"And he said,'Abba,Father,all things are possible for you. Remove this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what You will'." - Mark 14v36
I'm surrendering.
And it feels amazing.
xxx
